Is G-d conscious of what He does (in our sense of the word)? Is G-d’s will as free as is ours (Can He choose among possibilities)? Or may He change his own rules?
In truth we do not know much about God. In the words of Maimonides, “If I knew Him I would be Him”. To understand is to define, to define is to attribute characteristics. We only understand things by their details. The infinite, by definition, has no details. If God is male He is not female, and thus lacks something. Which can not be!
While God relates to man in a specific way (going mitzvot brings us closer and aveirot brings us further), we still do say that Mitzvot are what God is and Aveirot are what God is not. God, for example, is not an esrog, even though shaking one on Sukkot connects us to our source.
We believe, however, that God can not make Himself physical. God can not perform “deicide” (suicide). He can not limit his Infinity in any way. That is all we know.
But we do experience God! Ah, that is the key. Our soul is metaphysical, and through our soul we can experience what we can not understand! The soul connecting “understands” without the details. So, in short, through our learning the details in Torah and performing its mitzvot, our soul is free to connect to its Source, to our Source, to God.
Be well,
Yaakov Rosenblatt
